Hello Neverland!

So, this will likely be a short blog because I’m really tired and still ill because I fail at life.

I wish I could live in Neverland. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely adore college and when I look back at my childhood there are a lot of regrets and misgivings about it. But I still would love to be eternally a child. In my mind that would be so spectacular.

All I’d have to do all day is run around in my fantasy world. I just just laze about and play. Nap-time would still exist and not be filled with guilt. Responsibilities would be at an absolute minimum. It would be just so amazingly carefree.

This deals a lot with my fear of the unknown and of change. Growing up requires huge helpings of both of these and I don’t cope with either of them well. The unknown I try to ignore and change I deny. This leads me living in this perpetual present and only the extremely far and kinda existential future. Like, I have no problem trying to imagine a hypothetical end of the world several thousand or million or even billion (though I doubt we’ll last quite that long) years from now. However, I can’t give any sort of serious thought to five years from now without becoming incredibly worried and stressed.

I also don’t do well with planning ahead in my school work as that is something else that causes me stress. Though it would logically lead to less stress if I thought about it ahead of time and kept it under control, I still can’t emotionally handle that kind of planning cause then I start thinking about every day after that and that starts building leads to my actual future which is the above problem. Actually, it’s mostly that I don’t want to do my work.

I think I’m off topic. I’m really, really tired. I had an absolutely wonderful day filled with good food and amazing friends and one seriously frustrating episode of Doctor Who. WHY MOFFAT???? WHY??!???!

I’ll talk to you tomorrow when I’m hopefully more coherent.

TTFN,

-Merr

Sorority Events: 8

Israeli Dances: 5

Hello District 12!

I really liked this trilogy. My favorite was definitely Hunger Games by far but I’m very glad that the other two were written. The world isn’t one, especially in a young adult series, that can just be allowed to continue you. If Katniss just walked away from the Games and the world didn’t change, if there was no uprising, we would have all be left distraught and probably furious. So even though Katniss’s unwillingness to be overly helpful (though it makes sense) irritated me and how I definitely don’t believe Katniss would have voted yes for the Capitol games, I still really do like the other books and how they were treated.

That being said, this wasn’t the direction I was thinking I’d go with this blog. I was going to talk about amazing skills that I wish I could have. I am in no way saying that I wish to live in Katniss’s world. I just wish I had the archery skills she had and the familiarity with forests. I think this is definitely partially due to me not living near any forests that I have this desire so much. And the root of this is my desire to be more outdoorsy.

I was a girl scout for... I don’t remember how long. Nine years? Eight years? I should count but I’m not going to. Okay, I did. Eight. And I absolutely LOVED all of the campouts we went on. Being surrounded by the gorgeousness that is nature is really lovely and I wish I was around it more often. I wish I lived in a world where exploring was encouraged. I think there are places that still encourage it but I just don’t live in them. One day I hope to.

TTFN,

-Merr

Sorority Events: 8

Israeli Dances: 5

Hello New Pretty Town!

I was totally set to go out and get myself a fruit cup from one of the residential cafes and then I decided I’d stay here and eat my strawberries. Cause I’m lazy like that and there will still be fruit cups if I go tomorrow morning.

I would say that this shows how I embody laziness and procrastination, but I just spent the past 3 hours working on linear algebra and understanding dimensions and kernels and images so I’m going to say I’m not as lazy as usual.

And in general I’m not that lazy. I have four classes (which is reasonable to excessive in the quarter system), I’m in a sorority, I try to hang out with friends, and I also try to go to fun activities. But not everything works out timing wise, especially because I dedicate an excessive and unnecessary amount of time to youtube and twitter. So I then run out of time to do anything and have to choose between activities and getting homework done. Normally, my choice is a lack of sleep. Which then forces me not to go to activities because I’m sick (as is the current situation).

For example, I stayed up till 3 two nights ago because I decided to watch Glee. I woke up sick because I’m an idiot. However, I still had a presentation to do today for which I needed to finish research and make a powerpoint last night and was up until, I kid you not, 6 am. Yeah. So I got about 2 and a half hours of sleep, not something that’s in any way, shape, or form healthy. So I’m still sick and the huge downside is that instead of staying on campus to do my linear homework during my TA’s office hours and then programming in the lab and then going to a chocolate seder (essentially a meal consisting entirely of chocolate), I had to go back to my room and sleep for three hours before doing homework.

Yeah, not how I wanted today to go.

I should tie this in to the title now. New Pretty Town is a city where all the teenagers get to party and just have fun with no responsibilities. That’s how we’d want to live. That’s how we sometimes try to live but we can’t and the responsibilities catch up with us. And we have to deal with them or suffer consequences (e.g. sickness). So, this is a reminder to us all (mainly me) to keep on top of the schedule and not fall this far behind. Cause, honestly, it’s not worth having see Glee in the middle of the night or Hank’s new portal video within the first 20 minutes of being posted.

TTFN,

-Merr

Sorority Events: 8

Israeli Dances: 5

Hello Hundred Acre Woods!

Today Melina made a video where she was just singing the Winnie the Pooh theme song which reminded me of the movie they’re making (since that’s what inspired her to sing the theme) which reminded me of how excited I am for this movie even though I am too sick to express that excitement because I decided to stay up until 3 watching Glee and youtube instead of going to bed at 1 like a slightly more normal college student. And that, my friends, is called a run-on sentence and shouldn’t be used in academic writings.

I was a HUGE Winnie the Pooh fan growing up. My entire family was. My sister and I both had Winnie the Pooh themed parties. We had the toys (especially the bath toys, which I still remember fondly). And, most of all, one of our dogs is named Pooh Bear and the other is Winnie. Yeah, so that show is kinda a big deal to my family.

I say show because I never actually read the books. STOP! Don’t hunt me down and throw things at me in rage. I know, I should have. I really, really want to. I was going to at one point and then I couldn’t find my family’s copy so I read something else (probably Looking for Alaska). However we had some of the old TV series on VHS (I say some because I don’t know how many there were and I think we had 3), and we would watch them over and over and over. We also had the movie that came out in the late 90s which at first scared me so I didn’t watch too often. Mostly, my experience was the TV show.

And now there’s a new movie. What? You say they’ve done other movies recently that all looked terrible? Yes, I know. Them with their horrid 3D and all around weirdness and that new TV show. I know, I’m not happy about those either. But this new movie that’s coming in July really does look amazing. They’re doing it in the same style and with the same way of talking. It really truly reminds me of my childhood and I tear up every single time I watch the trailer. I plan on going to see the movie with my mom and just sitting there and crying.

I know that doesn’t sound fun but they will be happy tears. And it will be fun so no worries.

Also, I have a presentation on trees in Celtic mythology for tomorrow to prepare because I am a horrible student so I’m going to get back to that.

TTFN!

-Merr

Sorority Events: 8

Israeli Dances: 5

Hello Chalkzone!

So, kiddos. My internet is currently down because sometimes the housing construction will cut wires and completely disconnect all of the college students from everything!!!!! I’m frustrated about this and I wasn’t frustrated earlier, just stressed and haggard (I think it’s haggard... okay, maybe not quite haggard. Harried? No. I’m not sure. I’m just stressed, and now frustrated).

In all honesty, I don’t know why the internet is down and this is just me guessing based on what they’ve done previously. So I’m still going to count this as my April 19th blog even if it gets to you tomorrow because this is entirely out of my control and I don’t want to be penalized for it.

I’m in my lounge now cause my roommate was on the phone and after... 7 hours of continuously doing stuff and running around I want some quiet. I think my typing scared off my floor-mate who was here cause he just left. I feel kinda bad but it’s not like I’m really doing anything wrong so I’m going to not to now. That and I lack all energy for feeling bad.

I have decided that I’m not going to complain about food anymore. I will just deal and it will be fine. However, I will tell you right now that the current way in which I’m eating is NOT healthy. Basically, I spend the first 10-12 hours of my day consuming somewhere between 300 and 500 calories (so far today has been about 230) and then I consume at least 2000 in one to two hours. That’s can’t possibly be good for me.

I don’t really have anything to say about Chalkzone. It’s a TV show from my childhood and I vaguely remember it. My brother remembers it quite well cause his memory is better. The only reason I chose it is cause my other idea was either the Wasteland or the Lost Land cause King Arthur is still at the center of my world and I still don’t have time for one of my blogs that requires intelligent thought and profound analysis and cohesiveness.

I’m going to go get ready for another fun (hopefully) dinner that’s going to take up 6 hours during which I should be working. I hope you are less stressed than I and more awake.

TTFN,

-Merr

Sorority Events: 7

Israeli Dances: 5

PS. The downstairs has internet. I’m less stressed now and just irritated. I really need a nap :(

Hello Gotham!

Friking Tam Tams!!! I hate it when foods that used to be Kosher for Passover are not longer kosher for passover but are still stuck int he kosher for passover isle to trick unwitting, unhappy, stressed-out teenagers who have never had to feed themselves previously into buying something that’s supposed to be familiar and comforting to assure themselves that they will survive the next week. GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!

I’m a tad unhappy. You may be able to tell this from me equating my stupid purchase because I didn’t read the packaging to a city overflowing with murderous crime. Maybe I’m being melodramatic. Maybe I’m overreacting. But I’m definitely hungry and, while I will finally be able to eat a full meal around 10 or 11 tonight, I will be like this for the rest of the week. You might want to tune out cause I will literally be subsisting on matzah, yogurt, and fruit cups for the next 8 days and that makes me less than a fun person to be around.

I’m sorry in advance. I hope you return when I’m less moody.

TTFN,

-Merr

Sorority Events: 7

Israeli Dances: 5

Hello Annwfyn!

Food allergies would suck. Seriously. You’d have to check EVERYTHING! I mean, I keep kosher so I have to check some foods but there generally isn’t meat in products that wouldn’t logically have meat. There are nuts and diary and wheat and soy in everything and even if they aren’t directly in the food then it’s still possible that the product was manufactured using the same machinery as those that include the prohibited ingredients. And checking for all that is just plain intense! So, yeah. I’m not sure how that’s going to fit into this blog...

Basically, that was an idea I had earlier today when I was thinking I’d have to write an early blog cause I was going to go out and do stuff tonight. Not so. I stayed in and read another... 50-ish pages of my book and should soon start studying for my linear algebra test tomorrow. Yeah. I’m not happy with how this evening turned out :(

Since this is another one of my obscure places, Annwfyn is one of the Welsh names given to the Otherworld. It’s seen in a poem called Preideu Annwfyn, or The Spoils of Annwfyn, which is a Welsh poem likely from the 9th century CE accredited to the bard Taliesin and it’s about King Arthur leading a raiding party there that doesn’t go over too well as only 7 men of 3 boats worth return. And it really isn’t even about King Arthur is just references him as the leader and the Arthur of then is far different that the Arthur we think of now cause the Arthurian tradition is just plain INSANE! Honestly, we spent my myth class last week (2 hours and 30 minutes) trying to wrap our heads around the vast quantity of work there is on it and how it all developed and what that means for the other myths we study.

Also, the novel I’m reading is Silver on the Tree by Susan Cooper which deals a lot with the Wasteland and the Fisher King (well, a multiform of them [multiform being a retelling or just a different telling of the same or similar story]) and I spent a lot of time earlier this year working with Preideu Annwfyn so that’s the place that sprung to mind I was trying to come up with a topic. Cause honestly, that’s what I’ve been thinking about. Lots and lots of Welsh myths.

Odd topic for the brain of a math major. That brain is currently mad at me. But I’m going to give it some math soon which unfortunately will make it even madder.

See you after the test!

TTFN,

-Merr

Sorority Events: 7

Israeli Dances: 5

PS. I ate a chocolate chip cookie today cause it was given to me in my lunch after volunteering and I have no self control. If you read Haley G. Hoover’s blog you know she is a much stronger woman than I.